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The Gift of Being Me
How stepping away helped me reclaim myself and what truly matters. Biogradska Gora. The last couple of months have been challenging. I’d...
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Aug 14, 20254 min read


Trapped in Silence
Asaf and his wonderful carer Dill at running group this week. This week, I’m writing from a place of deep frustration. Not the fleeting...
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Jul 24, 20254 min read


Twenty Five: A Birthday Like No Other
This year was the first time ever that Asaf could truly be part of the preparations for his birthday. And what a difference that has...
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Jul 18, 20252 min read


A Birthday Blessing to Asaf
Asaf celebrating his birthday at Merchavim Asaf, 25 years ago today you made me a mother . I remember it clearly, the moment you...
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Jul 3, 20253 min read


When Silence Holds Fear: Reflections from the Safe Room
How does one deal with fear when there's no simple way to express it? The war with Iran, over the past two weeks, has brought that...
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Jun 26, 20254 min read


Healthy Egoism
Quality Time together in the Safe Room People often ask me where my strength comes from, how am I so resilient. The answer isn’t...
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Jun 19, 20254 min read


Mum, I Want to Talk to You
On Friday Morning at 3am, The Air raid Sirens sounded. We were jolted awake by air raid sirens echoing across the country, unsure what...
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Jun 14, 20253 min read


Love Needs to be Presumed Too...
I’ve written a lot about the voice I discovered in my son Asaf , a voice that rises from silence, from typing, from the inner world he...
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Jun 13, 20253 min read


When Asaf Told Me I Was Getting on His Nerves — and I Loved It
Sunset on Hof Dor Two months ago, Asaf asked that we — his family — stop participating in his typing sessions. He wanted the space to...
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Jun 5, 20253 min read


I HAVE A DREAM
Taking an ice cream break together 🌅 I HAVE A DREAM 🌅 And it’s time to verbalise it, time to visualise it, and time to make it...
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May 29, 20252 min read


Our Truth, Six Months In
It’s been six months since I started writing my blog. If you had told me a year ago that I would be writing heartfelt posts, publishing...
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May 22, 20253 min read


When Pain Has No Words.
Enjoying a refreshing morning together in the clear waters of Nachal Hakibutzim. For as long as I can remember, I believed Asaf had a...
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May 16, 20255 min read


The meaning of Independence
What does independence mean when your body doesn’t move the way you want it to—but your heart and mind are fully awake? This Independence...
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May 8, 20253 min read


When Silence Awakens
For most of my life as Asaf’s mother, I believed what the experts told me: That my son’s cognitive abilities were extremely limited. That...
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May 2, 20253 min read


Changing the Lens: How I Learned to See Asaf Differently
I recently received and read the report written by the hostel about Asaf. Reading it filled me with questions, reflections, and a deep...
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Apr 25, 20254 min read


Asaf’s freedom isn’t Abstract.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about freedom . What it means. How it feels. How different it is for every single person. For some,...
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Apr 17, 20255 min read


More Than I Ever Imagined
Asaf went on an overnight trip with his cycling group. To be honest, I didn’t overthink what it would actually mean physically for him....
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Apr 10, 20253 min read


The Power of Acceptance
Asaf managed to mount the horse today after weeks in which his dyspraxia prevented him from doing so As a facilitator for the Family...
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Apr 3, 20254 min read


Autism Awareness Day
There is so much beauty in this world. This morning, after an amazing swim in the natural river, I watched the sunrise. This evening, I...
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Apr 2, 20251 min read


Connection Beyond Words
Connection Beyond Words I spend a lot of time watching Asaf. It’s fascinating to see him drift in and out of what I call his autistic...
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Mar 28, 20253 min read
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